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svnsettialea's weekly check-in ➛ december 11th - december 17th
something good that happened is... things i did this week:
let me know how your week was in the comments! feel free copy one (or some) of these prompts or just summarize your week to me (۶•̀ᴗ•́)۶ thanks for reading!
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something good that happened is...
aside from yesterday, which i already wrote about, i had a chance to finish the 3.3 archon quest this week!
the trailer was misleading! i thought the quest would go very differently, and i really like that the trailer threw me off so much. it's good to have so many very exciting clips in that trailer to get the fans properly hyped up without giving too much away and spoiling the story. i know that a lot of people didn't like how "erasing things from irminsul" plot was reused and honestly i didn't like it that much either, but i think it was done well. it sort of reminded me of the steven universe movie. i was wondering how hoyoverse would set up scaramouche's redemption after his fall from grace, because honestly even after that i don't think he'd just admit defeat and become good. he isn't that kind of guy. scaramouche finding out that his second betrayal was a lie was a really cool way to do it, because it directly targeted a main part of his villain origin story and showed him that every assumption he's made about his past has been wrong, and that he never needed to become evil in the first place. we've already known that scara isn't the most reliable narrator, so it made sense for him to jump to a conclusion as drastic as "he saw me as an abomination," although we don't know exactly what dottore said to scaramouche after niwa's murder--did dottore use the word abomination? is that how he explained it to him? why did scaramouche believe dottore, after being told time and time again by niwa that niwa saw him as human and as a member of his family? the sudden change in heart that scaramouche had after learning the truth at irminsul is fascinating, and i want to know what was going on in his head at that time. i have no doubts that he loved niwa and everyone else at tatarasuna, and that he realized that the humans there didn't deserve the fate they got. what about the next hundreds of years though, and all the other humans he met? did he change his mind about them, too? either way, erasing himself from irminsul is the exact type of extreme behaviour that i expect from him. i'm still thinking about whether redemption could have been possible without erasing himself from irminsul--were his patterns too strong to break without a complete death and rebirth of his character? i don't think the answer to that question matters, because the point is that, (and i say this with love because he is my favourite character), scaramouche has unhealthy and extreme ways of dealing with things, and he always been single minded and weak willed. maybe in his mind, the information he learned was too much to bear. that's why he made himself forget it. i believe that there would have been better ways to deal with it, but there's no use in wondering what would happen if things went differently. in any case, the outcome was favourable, and i was very excited to watch him get his vision on screen!
the trailer was misleading! i thought the quest would go very differently, and i really like that the trailer threw me off so much. it's good to have so many very exciting clips in that trailer to get the fans properly hyped up without giving too much away and spoiling the story. i know that a lot of people didn't like how "erasing things from irminsul" plot was reused and honestly i didn't like it that much either, but i think it was done well. it sort of reminded me of the steven universe movie. i was wondering how hoyoverse would set up scaramouche's redemption after his fall from grace, because honestly even after that i don't think he'd just admit defeat and become good. he isn't that kind of guy. scaramouche finding out that his second betrayal was a lie was a really cool way to do it, because it directly targeted a main part of his villain origin story and showed him that every assumption he's made about his past has been wrong, and that he never needed to become evil in the first place. we've already known that scara isn't the most reliable narrator, so it made sense for him to jump to a conclusion as drastic as "he saw me as an abomination," although we don't know exactly what dottore said to scaramouche after niwa's murder--did dottore use the word abomination? is that how he explained it to him? why did scaramouche believe dottore, after being told time and time again by niwa that niwa saw him as human and as a member of his family? the sudden change in heart that scaramouche had after learning the truth at irminsul is fascinating, and i want to know what was going on in his head at that time. i have no doubts that he loved niwa and everyone else at tatarasuna, and that he realized that the humans there didn't deserve the fate they got. what about the next hundreds of years though, and all the other humans he met? did he change his mind about them, too? either way, erasing himself from irminsul is the exact type of extreme behaviour that i expect from him. i'm still thinking about whether redemption could have been possible without erasing himself from irminsul--were his patterns too strong to break without a complete death and rebirth of his character? i don't think the answer to that question matters, because the point is that, (and i say this with love because he is my favourite character), scaramouche has unhealthy and extreme ways of dealing with things, and he always been single minded and weak willed. maybe in his mind, the information he learned was too much to bear. that's why he made himself forget it. i believe that there would have been better ways to deal with it, but there's no use in wondering what would happen if things went differently. in any case, the outcome was favourable, and i was very excited to watch him get his vision on screen!
something bad that happened is...
i stayed inside too much and ended up feeling really gross. i'd have random bursts of feeling hot or cold or clammy and a little nauseous. sometimes i'd feel weak or lightheaded, too. i was worried because my mom came down with something too, and i might have caught it from her, but it turned out to just be weird symptoms from an eyelid infection. nothing she can pass on that easily. i also just felt down because i finished school before all my friends so i wasn't busy but they all were. it seemed like nobody had time to hang out with me.
i think my main struggle this week was with my faith though, but i don't want to get into that on here. it's too personal.
i think my main struggle this week was with my faith though, but i don't want to get into that on here. it's too personal.
i overcame the bad thing by...
visited my friend! it was very good for me to just suck it up and spend a day downtown. i also have plans every day next week up until thursday so i shouldn't have to deal with that horrible stagnant feeling for a while. i had a chance to talk to some friends about my struggles with my faith this week and they helped me a lot.
i'm thankful for...
the fact that i can rest during my winter break, the opportunity to hang out with my friend yesterday, seeing my friend in church today, spending quality time with my grandmother today, the lady who brought my painting back to me after i forgot it at chipotle, my cat's willingness to let me bathe her, the flu shot i got and the willpower it took for me to get it, my dad setting a good example for me when he gave back extra change to the cashier after she miscounted it, the cool craft i bought at dollarama for real cheap, the bravery i showed when i ate my thai express order despite thinking it was contaminated, the party supplies my mom bought for me, the peach schnapps my dad bought for me, and the guidance my friends have given me.
finished playing the new genshin archon quest
continued playing coloring pixels
continued reading chosen for his desert throne by caitlin crews
continued reading the book of job
continued building my diy miniature house
continued playing coloring pixels
continued reading chosen for his desert throne by caitlin crews
continued reading the book of job
continued building my diy miniature house
